I never saw myself as a perfectionist. As I look around at my life nothing seems to be super in order, super pretty, or put together. Many times I procrastinate doing things that are seemingly simple tasks. Looking into my life, perfectionist is not a way I ever would have described myself.
Lately I have done a lot of self reflecting trying to figure myself out. The outcomes of my life are not what I want. I am always looking for ways to improve my situation. As I learn I have found out that perfectionism is something that plagues me daily.
I would look around my house at all the things that need to be done and think of reasons why I shouldn’t do them, can’t do them, or maybe I’ll do that later. For instance, I remember looking at the floor thinking, that needs to be vacuumed. Then I would tell myself, “If you do that, you’ll have to dust first, move everything out of the way, then you’ll have to pick everything up off the floor to vacuum, then put it back. Oh, the kids are napping, you can’t vacuum while they nap. And, the kids are afraid of the vaccum, so you really shouldn’t vacuum while they are up.” Man, that thinking wears me out.
While I still think like this daily, I have learned some ways to combat this.